Lily Allen Said She No Longer Feels “Financially Stable” After Her David Harbour Split As She Opened Up About The “Shame” Of Being Newly Single In Her 40s And How Her Marriage Fueled Self-Hatred

At the time, Lily made it incredibly clear on her podcast, Miss Me?, that she was going through a pretty tough time. In January, she told listeners: “I’m finding it really hard to be interested in anything; I’m just really not in a good place. I know I’ve been talking about it for months, but I’ve been spiraling and spiraling and spiraling, and it’s got out of control.”

Upon her return, Lily made some pretty pointed comments about men preferring to date younger women in a conversation with her co-host, Miquita Oliver. Seemingly alluding to unverified reports that 50-year-old David was dating 27-year-old aspiring model Ellie Fallon, 40-year-old Lily said: “Aging is particularly inconvenient if you get your validation from the attention of men, which I do… They seem to like them young, don’t they?”

More recently, Lily has further opened up about her and David’s split ahead of the release of her new album, West End Girl, with Lily’s British Vogue profile revealing that several songs on the album appear to refer to her and David’s marriage.

The song “Sleepwalking” features the lyric: “You let me think it was me in my head / And nothing to do with them girls in your bed,” and “Dallas Major,” includes the line: “You know I used to be quite famous that was way back in the day / I probably should explain how my marriage has been open since my husband went astray.”

And more telling lyrics have been revealed in a new interview with Perfect magazine, with “Madeline” described as “an imagined conversation between a wronged wife and the other woman in her husband’s life,” and including the line: “I can’t trust anything that comes out of your mouth / I’m not convinced that he didn’t fuck you in our house.”

While “Pussy Palace” is even more risqué with the lyric: “Duane Reade bag with the handles tied / Sex toys, butt plugs, lube inside / Hundreds of Trojans you’re so fucking broken / How did I get caught up in your double life?”

Notably, in the interview’s intro, journalist Alex Bilmes, who is personal friends with Lily, writes that Lily has been “prevented from discussing specifically” the “details about the demise of her recent marriage,” but Lily once again confirmed: “There are definitely some things that happened in my real life that are reflected on this record.”

When asked about her and David’s marriage breakdown, the star admitted: “I don’t know what I can say.”

“The dating scene is much harder as a 40-year-old woman with two teenage children than it is for a 34-year-old woman,” she said. “It’s bitterly disappointing. There’s an element of humiliation and shame around it. The world doesn’t portray women of my age as being desirable. And it just feels like climbing up a mountain. But also, at the same time, I’m like, I don’t have to get involved with it. But something in me says that I do.”

When Alex later asked Lily about the “self-hatred” that is evident on West End Girl, Lily confessed: “I don’t think that my previous relationship has helped me with any of that.”

Elsewhere in the interview, the star noted that she no longer feels as “financially stable” as she did when married to David, who has an estimated net worth of $6 million, which is one of the reasons why she is returning to the pop industry.

“Contrary to popular belief, my parents have not been bankrolling my life since I was 17 or 18 years old,” Lily began. “A year and a half ago, I was financially stable and I didn’t have to think about work. And now I do. And this is what I do to earn money.”

“And I have two children to support,” she went on. “This is all I know how to do. I’m not going to train to be a lawyer now. It’s a bit late for that.”